Used to I cried when I stepped on the scale. I cried because I was at first.....too big for the scale that had a dial. It would measure 10 pounds because in reality I was fatter then the 300 limit.
At that moment I cried.
I was watching my weight slowly creep up to unimaginable levels.
At that moment I cried.
I spent morning standing in front of my scale, terrified to step on and see what the truth was in my horrible eating habits.
At that moment I cried.
I would buy scales thinking, maybe if I got a new one that was fancy, it would somehow change my weight.
In those moments I cried.
It got to the point that I gave up in my weight. For a while I didn't care. I didn't want to know because I refused to face the truth. I no longer cared about my health, even though I was supposed to be a nurse and a good example. HA! yeah right.
But this morning I cried again. But something changed.
This morning I stepped on the scale and say a weight I hadn't seen in 6 years. And I cried. I cried for myself and my future. I cried for all the moments I said I couldn't. I cried because I realized this journey was possible.
At that moment I cried.
Tuesday, February 24, 2015
Wednesday, February 11, 2015
My Story
Okay! I can do this. Never have done this before, but hey there is always a chance to do something new.
I guess it is motivational Wednesday but I am probably going to post this on Thursday so I am calling this Transformation Thursday story! And it is my story. One that people have bits and pieces to but no one has the whole thing. Until now.
I was never a skinny girl. NEVER! In fact I don't ever remembering being under 200 pounds. Take that back, I don't remember ever being under 250. I was always the big girl. The girl that hated the stupid physical fitness test in high school. The girl that became a band geek because that meant I didn't have to take PE. It wasn't that I didn't like sports, I love them. I love playing volleyball and basketball, I was just never fit enough to do it.
Anyway, My weight in high school was horrible. Now matter how little I ate, I gained. But what I did eat was horrendous. I lived on fast food and sodas. When I graduated I was 275 pounds easy. I hated myself. I hated that I was addicted to food. I hated that I was eating myself to death slowly. But I really didn't change anything because heck it was just my body, who cares. That's when all hell broke loose. Right after I graduated I went to the doctor. All I wanted was birth control for my horrible cramps and cycle. I mean 3 week long periods were not for me! It was then that my weight showed how it can hurt me. II went in for a pill, I left scheduled for surgery in following week, and told I was pre-diabetic and had high cholesterol. At the age of 18, my blood pressure was 156/95 on a good day. I was told I had poly cystic ovarian syndrome. Has my doctor explained, my ovaries looked like bubble wrap. My constant pain and long periods were all signs. She then preceded to tell me that my fat had literally taken over my hormones.
Two weeks later I had surgery where 2 liters of fluid and a Fallopian tube were removed and told that unless I lost weight, my chances of being a mom were 0%. I left for college determined but depressed at the same time.
When I first left for college I was so ready to lose weight. I joined weight watchers, I joined the gym. I was gonna rock the weight loss. HA! Yeah right. Enter the freshman 15, okay 25. In one year the stress of living on my own, going to school, and a horrible relationship sent me to the world of food again. I was officially in a number I never wanted to see. I was 300 pounds. But I ignored it. I went on my way. I focused on school and focused on getting into nursing school. My two years of nursing school led me to want to lose weight again. I didn't want to be over weight, I didn't want to lose my chance of being a mom, I didn't want to be diabetic, and I really didn't want to be a hypocrite. Why should I tell my patients to lose weight when I can't even do it. So in those two years here is every thing I did.....
1. Weight Watchers (lost 15 pounds before the meetings became stupid to me and the support vanished.)
2. Adkins (Until my lovely roommates wanted to go out almost every night......ended up gaining 10 pounds)
3. Calorie counting (lost nothing gained nothing. HAd no desire to count calories)
4. Eat healthy and go to the gym (gave that up after a week)
5. The paleo diet (supposed to help PCOS girls lose weight because of the lack of hormones in the food)
6. And my favorite.....the 3 day cardiac diet. (the whole diet is three days of strict eating where you can lose 7 pounds in the 3 days, yeah I was desperate enough that that sounded like a good idea)
I tried everything, my roommates thought I was crazy. Every time I started a diet they would have bets on how long it would last. I ballooned to 320 pounds. MY nursing professors told me that I would never be a good nurse if I kept gaining. I graduated college and moved back to Austin with a total lack of caring. I moved back in with my parents, who at the time were doing weight watchers so I was kinda eating healthy.
After a year of that I lost about 10 pounds. I was back to 315. At this point I was still on the fast track to the grave. I decided in January of 2014 to give weight watchers another shot. And it worked, kinda. I would lose weight, then give in to a craving binge and gain it back. I was addicted to diet soda, I loved carbs, oh and I was in love with "healthy" ice cream. That summer I went to work at a camp as the nurse and lost 15 pounds. I was down to 300 but I was stuck. I couldn't get past my giant plateau. No matter what I did I could not get under 300.
Enter one of my dearest friends. In August, I was persuaded to give the Advocare 24 day challenge a shot. Heck the results my friend had were AWESOME! And she loved the products. I figured why not give it a shot. So in August I did and in 24 days I lost 12 pounds and 18 inches. I was not only under 300 but in the 280s. But At the time I couldn't keep up after the 24 days and life decided to stick its tongue out at me. From August to December I gained some of the weight back and I decided that I was done. Truly done. In December I became and advocare distributor. I promised myself that I would never see 300 again.
So in January of this year, I did my second 24 day challenge with my parents. I started at 299 and in the 24 days I lost 13 pounds. My dad lost 15 pounds and my mom lost 3. But I gained so much more. I gained an amazing coach and a supportive upline, who I have spent time talking to and getting to know product more. On day 25 of my advocare journey I ordered more product to keep going. And I can now say I am back to my high school weight, as of this morning I am at 275! A number I haven't seen in 6 years. But more as happened then just a change in number.
I had a check up with my OB/GYN recently and the changes that have taken place even amazed her! My blood pressure was 138/80. My resting heart rate went from in the 80s to in the 60s. My LDL (bad cholesterol) went down while my good cholesterol went up. My PCOS issues have started resolving themselves. Enough that she even said that I am slowly changing my chances of being a mom. When we talked about what I was doing she was so excited about my changes with Advocare, turns out she heard it was good for PCOS and she is an advocare user too.
I have started jogging. Recently jogging a 5k and loved it! I am addicted to the gym. I haven't had a soda since Januray 1st. I haven't eaten fast food, mostly because I don't crave it. I now crave carrots and hummus.
I can't say Advocare fixed everything but ADvocare did get me on the healthy track. It has helped me find the path I need to be on. I am now known as the Advocare junkie in my family. My parents and cousin get tired of the "what products do you need to order?" or the "Have you tried....?" questions. I am now in love with my Thermoplus, Carbease (a PCOS girls dream!), MNS, and now the slim. I am a long way from my goal but I will get it this year not only because I love the products but because I love the people that I know won't give up on me.
Was it hard to get to where I was. OMG yes. I was miserable the first few days of January. (Later found out that PCOS enjoys messing with your digestive tract and it doesn't like when you change things) But I had a friend give a good example to me. The 24 day challenge is like going to a drug rehab center. Those first few days are like a crack addict going cold turkey. Your body craves everything to are trying to get away from and it is going to hate you when you take the bad things away. But give it time and just like the addict you will feel so much better. And the more you go the more you become addicted to living the new lifestyle.
Anyone reading this. You can do this! If I can, you can. Don't stop if you have a bad day. Don't give up on yourself. This is the longest I have ever been on a healthy lifestyle kick and I am not stopping any time soon. This is the time to invest in yourself. To make yourself healthy!
I guess it is motivational Wednesday but I am probably going to post this on Thursday so I am calling this Transformation Thursday story! And it is my story. One that people have bits and pieces to but no one has the whole thing. Until now.
I was never a skinny girl. NEVER! In fact I don't ever remembering being under 200 pounds. Take that back, I don't remember ever being under 250. I was always the big girl. The girl that hated the stupid physical fitness test in high school. The girl that became a band geek because that meant I didn't have to take PE. It wasn't that I didn't like sports, I love them. I love playing volleyball and basketball, I was just never fit enough to do it.
Anyway, My weight in high school was horrible. Now matter how little I ate, I gained. But what I did eat was horrendous. I lived on fast food and sodas. When I graduated I was 275 pounds easy. I hated myself. I hated that I was addicted to food. I hated that I was eating myself to death slowly. But I really didn't change anything because heck it was just my body, who cares. That's when all hell broke loose. Right after I graduated I went to the doctor. All I wanted was birth control for my horrible cramps and cycle. I mean 3 week long periods were not for me! It was then that my weight showed how it can hurt me. II went in for a pill, I left scheduled for surgery in following week, and told I was pre-diabetic and had high cholesterol. At the age of 18, my blood pressure was 156/95 on a good day. I was told I had poly cystic ovarian syndrome. Has my doctor explained, my ovaries looked like bubble wrap. My constant pain and long periods were all signs. She then preceded to tell me that my fat had literally taken over my hormones.
Two weeks later I had surgery where 2 liters of fluid and a Fallopian tube were removed and told that unless I lost weight, my chances of being a mom were 0%. I left for college determined but depressed at the same time.
When I first left for college I was so ready to lose weight. I joined weight watchers, I joined the gym. I was gonna rock the weight loss. HA! Yeah right. Enter the freshman 15, okay 25. In one year the stress of living on my own, going to school, and a horrible relationship sent me to the world of food again. I was officially in a number I never wanted to see. I was 300 pounds. But I ignored it. I went on my way. I focused on school and focused on getting into nursing school. My two years of nursing school led me to want to lose weight again. I didn't want to be over weight, I didn't want to lose my chance of being a mom, I didn't want to be diabetic, and I really didn't want to be a hypocrite. Why should I tell my patients to lose weight when I can't even do it. So in those two years here is every thing I did.....
1. Weight Watchers (lost 15 pounds before the meetings became stupid to me and the support vanished.)
2. Adkins (Until my lovely roommates wanted to go out almost every night......ended up gaining 10 pounds)
3. Calorie counting (lost nothing gained nothing. HAd no desire to count calories)
4. Eat healthy and go to the gym (gave that up after a week)
5. The paleo diet (supposed to help PCOS girls lose weight because of the lack of hormones in the food)
6. And my favorite.....the 3 day cardiac diet. (the whole diet is three days of strict eating where you can lose 7 pounds in the 3 days, yeah I was desperate enough that that sounded like a good idea)
I tried everything, my roommates thought I was crazy. Every time I started a diet they would have bets on how long it would last. I ballooned to 320 pounds. MY nursing professors told me that I would never be a good nurse if I kept gaining. I graduated college and moved back to Austin with a total lack of caring. I moved back in with my parents, who at the time were doing weight watchers so I was kinda eating healthy.
After a year of that I lost about 10 pounds. I was back to 315. At this point I was still on the fast track to the grave. I decided in January of 2014 to give weight watchers another shot. And it worked, kinda. I would lose weight, then give in to a craving binge and gain it back. I was addicted to diet soda, I loved carbs, oh and I was in love with "healthy" ice cream. That summer I went to work at a camp as the nurse and lost 15 pounds. I was down to 300 but I was stuck. I couldn't get past my giant plateau. No matter what I did I could not get under 300.
(Top left- when I started, top right- before camp, bottom left- end of camp, bottom right- middle of challenge)
So in January of this year, I did my second 24 day challenge with my parents. I started at 299 and in the 24 days I lost 13 pounds. My dad lost 15 pounds and my mom lost 3. But I gained so much more. I gained an amazing coach and a supportive upline, who I have spent time talking to and getting to know product more. On day 25 of my advocare journey I ordered more product to keep going. And I can now say I am back to my high school weight, as of this morning I am at 275! A number I haven't seen in 6 years. But more as happened then just a change in number.
I had a check up with my OB/GYN recently and the changes that have taken place even amazed her! My blood pressure was 138/80. My resting heart rate went from in the 80s to in the 60s. My LDL (bad cholesterol) went down while my good cholesterol went up. My PCOS issues have started resolving themselves. Enough that she even said that I am slowly changing my chances of being a mom. When we talked about what I was doing she was so excited about my changes with Advocare, turns out she heard it was good for PCOS and she is an advocare user too.
I have started jogging. Recently jogging a 5k and loved it! I am addicted to the gym. I haven't had a soda since Januray 1st. I haven't eaten fast food, mostly because I don't crave it. I now crave carrots and hummus.
I can't say Advocare fixed everything but ADvocare did get me on the healthy track. It has helped me find the path I need to be on. I am now known as the Advocare junkie in my family. My parents and cousin get tired of the "what products do you need to order?" or the "Have you tried....?" questions. I am now in love with my Thermoplus, Carbease (a PCOS girls dream!), MNS, and now the slim. I am a long way from my goal but I will get it this year not only because I love the products but because I love the people that I know won't give up on me.
Was it hard to get to where I was. OMG yes. I was miserable the first few days of January. (Later found out that PCOS enjoys messing with your digestive tract and it doesn't like when you change things) But I had a friend give a good example to me. The 24 day challenge is like going to a drug rehab center. Those first few days are like a crack addict going cold turkey. Your body craves everything to are trying to get away from and it is going to hate you when you take the bad things away. But give it time and just like the addict you will feel so much better. And the more you go the more you become addicted to living the new lifestyle.
Anyone reading this. You can do this! If I can, you can. Don't stop if you have a bad day. Don't give up on yourself. This is the longest I have ever been on a healthy lifestyle kick and I am not stopping any time soon. This is the time to invest in yourself. To make yourself healthy!
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